Spiritual Wilderness

Hosea 13:

I cared for you in the wilderness, In the land of drought.



This is far my favorite song from Kristyn Getty



“My soul longs for The Lord in a weary land
Wells are dry and I am empty,
Only dust in my hands.
How I yearn for streams of mercy
Where my soul can be restored
’Come and drink’ Jesus calls me,
’And you will thirst no more and you will thirst no more’
Oh the fullness of Christ
Word of God Word of life

We thirst for  God’s provision in drought places We thirst for God’s victory over struggles, We thirst for healing and deliverance over sickness, and even salvation for our family and loved ones.

We may find ourselves walking with God in dry isolated places where things that happening are not what we expected to be.

and We still have this joy and hope that We are serving a great God that has a greater plan for us. Sometimes we tend to forget that We are walking alongside with God that has a clear view of His destination for us.

But we need to remain still.

Deuteronomy 2:7

“For the LORD your God has blessed you in all that you have done; He has known your wanderings through this great wilderness These forty years the LORD your God has been with you; you have not lacked a thing.”‘


Make him remember your back as you walk away.



Sometimes giving up is the best option when you already wasted a lot of yourself to a person, who never really care or even know your worth.


Make Him remember your back as you walk away.


When we were young
We love chasing mystery’s
Baffled by the maze from the stars
and unwavering heights


From an ardent flame
We should take things slow
and the fire devoured my mind
I let it consume me entirely


you keep me outside your door
and let me in when you’re cold
you want me to be there
to keep your smoldering coals

But I’m too overwhelmed
that I sauntered down the cliff
I was hoping you’ll be there
You hold my hand and let me fall


you know I made bridges to reach you
but you never take a step on it
you let the fog blocked  the way
but the haze gets in your eyes


Sometimes giving up is the best option when you already wasted a lot of yourself to a person, who never really care or even know your worth.

Make Him remember your back as you walk away.


I’m not a poet nor a lyricist, I’m  just breathing my heart out from a painful experience.

God cleared the fog to let me see how vivid is His plan to my life, and I met a someone who never fails to make me feel important and loved every day of my life.


Reason’s Why I choose the window seats on the bus


               Have you ever found yourself beside the window of the bus or a car, conspicuously staring blankly, In deep thoughts, and mind traveling?

Well, I have the same question.  The window doesn’t make any sense at all but the view from it is the mere reason.

These are my honest reason’s why I chose the window seat.

  1.  Boredom.

The long travel hours are definitely the killer of good mood. I need to be inspired to get to work. I tend to feel worn out while traveling, but because of a good view outside it makes me feel a little satisfied.


2. To breathe out. (Depends on where I am going to)

This is if the window is open, I prefer to ride on a bus with an open window. If I’m going to travel on a countryside or a province.To breathe fresh air and feel the nature’s wind on.To breathe fresh air and feel the nature’s wind on.To breathe fresh air and feel the nature’s wind on my face.


I will never ride on the bus with an open window. .If you had experienced traveling in an air-polluted city, then you know what I mean.


3. Where I can rest my head.

This is to avoid being awkward.I experience being caught in an awkward situation that due to grogginess my head landed on a man’s  shoulder, which happened to be with his Girlfriend, well that is certainly unforgettable

4.  To see what’s happening outside.

I want to be aware of what is happening outside, I feel anxious easily maybe it’s because of too much exposure to movies such as “Zombie Apocalypse” and “Resident Evil”, That sometimes I Imagined being one of the survived characters in a thriller movie.


5. An escape to reality.

When I’m in trouble and in deep thought, I love to stare out the window, put my headphones on, listen to some tranquil songs, and sleep. That is how I escape the reality that I’m late to work. I used to be anxious thinking about an excuse why I’m late and that is not helping me at all. So this is how I can cope with anxiety issues whenever I’m on a bus.


We all have our reason’s why we want to sit near the window, but here’s few to add.

Thanks for reading my blog.

God bless you  🙂

Know your silent murderer before it’s too late.



Source: http://reasonabletheology.org/sin-is-your-murderer/

I’m sharing this through my experience, This is my personal testimony of How God Change my life. Your Christianity will be held questionable if you didn’t experience the Power of Christ in your life.

.The Power to overcome Sin.I have not much to offer even my life is not of worthy but I experience the power of Christ, it, I can’t deny it

I was a porn addict, have an addiction playing online games which I didn’t know that it will drag me to hell,

the reason why is because I want to escape my past being sexually abused at the age of 14 years old and I know my life become a mess after that, I want to escape by playing online games, watching porn  and forget about it, but the grudge is too powerful that I began plotting and planning a crime to the man who did that thing to me, this thought of mine lead to  me depression and self-destruction ,I end up being passive and immune to the pain that is inside me , I even gave myself to other guys  I deprived myself, knowing no one will accept me, if they knew my life, even though I think of  that God never really care about me because of my situation . I’m at the peak of my filthy sins and emptiness and I know there’s no one that can help me, I even planned to kill myself that night I’m, sitting on the window, 2:00 in the morning because of the emptiness inside , I uttered some words,” If you are a real God , Why can’t i feel your here , why , why am i living , ? It is better not to be born than to have this kind of life,,. If your real please help me …never knew I’m praying to Him that night.

I’m, sitting on the window, 2:00 in the morning because of the emptiness inside, I uttered some words,” If you are a real God, Why can’t I feel your here, why, why am I living,? It is better not to be born than to have this kind of life,,. If your real please help me …never knew I’m praying to Him that night.

Woke up the next day to find Him, I thought I can find Him inside the religious churches, I end up being the same again, I feel tired and alone and weary.

That moment that I have nowhere to go, I rode a bus not knowing where it will go.

I end up sitting at  the park  in a wide parameter and it seems that there’s an event that day, a church Anniversary, one of the usherettes lead me to one of the seats as I watch people pass by and voice somewhere caught my attention,

this is not an accident that your here ” God knows you’re in need , He wants to help you .

All of a sudden they played a video clips from the passion of the Christ. A scene where Jesus is in shackles and being crucified to death.


Never knew I’m crying,  seeing How God’s love lead Him to this sacrifice, And I’ve seen myself,my sin my filthy desires, unworthy of this kind of love. I know I need His Forgiveness. I ran at the altar call and cried, that night the moment that I accepted Christ as my Lord and Saviour I felt the unspeakable peace and joy that I have never felt my entire life. Something’s changed inside me.

I  struggled to sins and God helped me to get out of it.

A Changed life is not instant, you really need to fight for it, fight for holiness and purity.

We I have no power over Sin unless we desire God’s power to work in our life and we need the outpouring of the holy Spirit.

We have no power over Sin unless we desire God’s power to work in our life and we need the outpouring of the holy Spirit.


I don’t want to go back to my old life, its’ hard to forgive unless you experience a powerful forgiveness, which I found in Christ alone, I forgive him as How Christ forgive me, He even attended one of the services in the church , This is How God works in our life miraculously .

I’ve been set free, I’m still struggling but not like it was before, Jesus say’s ” We are more than conquerors,

God even give me the man that accepts me for who I am, He is my husband We are in the same ministry of preaching the gospel and testifying How God changes our lives.

I’m nothing without Jesus in my life …

This is not to condemn you my friend .But if you are living sinfully , you really need God’s Grace .

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There is hope from Jesus


Jesus Gace Himself for us sinners to have an everlasting life.

All you need to do is to humble yourself and ask for forgiveness and accept Him as Your Lord and Saviour.


Thank you for reading my blog and my short Testimony

I prayed that God will bless your life. Thank you



Stepping out of your borders




When there’s nothing left but God then all you need is Him.

As my faith grows through the years, I know I cannot make this on my own, I know I have nothing but God in my life  Thanks be to GOD my Savior and My Deliverer. Through Him, I am strong through Him I know I can face the storm with perfect peace, through Him alone.

I remember at the peak of my darkest moments when my brother died and I lose my ministry at the same time, I have nothing to turn to but God, I remember crying and praying 3-4 in the morning with my loudest cry like a bawling child, my face to the ground. At that moment, words are hardly uttered my lips are quivering my heart is in so much pain, at that moment when I can’t hardly pray, I felt the overflowing peace, He made me remember my promise

” Lord this is my commitment, I give you my life, I will serve you, no matter what happen  I will serve you “

and I felt His warmth and I can not explain the peace that I felt during that time of prayer, when I Feel that the God of heavens and the earth, The author of life the God of universe  When He look through all the Heavens and eternity and through it all he   saw   me that I am in desperate need  . I know I am not alone that time, I know I have nothing but Him even  I do not deserve His love.

I felt His loneliness and grief “He gave His life for salvation of the many how much pain would it take for Him who suffered so so much”

During those times I  repent that I  have asked Him so much and even questioned His Sovereignty, He is a forgiving God

This made me realized  ” He’d still been God, No matter what happened, from the best of best and the worst of worst.

” He’d still been God, No matter what happened, from the best of best and the worst of worst.

He’d still been God, He  will always be no matter how worst the situation would, and will be.

It’s not because you serve God and Bad things happen along the way His sovereignty and Godliness will be held questionable. No, We are only humans we are just a creation  No matter what happens God will always be God and we as we are. The only difference is how we deal with hard times the way we look at our circumstances and look for God’s perspective.


All my hope is in you

Did I  ever question God for what happened?

Yes and I repent.

He never promised for an explanation for every bad thing that happened.

Not a guarantee that everything has its own explanation because our minds are too occupied by desperate reasons, that we may fail enough to understand life and its mystery.

I know My life is under construction, it is not finished yet, God has a plan for me

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

I hold on to His promises.

I know the Lord I served died for me so I will live my life for him He is worth living and dying for.

I stepped out of my borders and share my testimony of How God save me from myself and my filthy Sins.Only Jesus has the power to break every stronghold of Sin, and  can only change a life.

I don’t want to go back to my old life

I don’t want to go back to my old life and, I don’t need to.

Thank you for reading my blog, I can’t help it, I’m crying while typing and reminiscing  how My Lord God has been faithful to me

I hope you like it,

I know God let me write this for a reason. Someone out there has the same situation  And Let me tell this to you, God has  a perfect plan for your life

And Let me tell this to you, God has a perfect plan for your life  He loves you more than Himself that he died for you and me.

John 3:16

16 For this is the way God loved the world: He gave his one and only Son so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.

Just Give Him a chance to show that to you, Open your heart and receive Him as your Lord   and Saviour.

He feels your pain and see’s your situation .

Please follow this simple prayer:

“Father, I know that I have broken your laws and my sins have separated me from you. I am truly sorry, and now I want to turn away from my past sinful life toward you. Please forgive me, and help me avoid sinning again. I believe that your son, Jesus Christ died for my sins, was resurrected from the dead, is alive, and hears my prayer. I invite Jesus to become the Lord of my life, to rule and reign in my heart from this day forward. Please send your Holy Spirit to help me obey You, and to do Your will for the rest of my life. In Jesus’ name, I pray, Amen.”


I hope you have a blessed day

🙂 God bless you all




Alokozay Black Tea Review

black tea

  “Imagine how miserable life would be without tea”,

Well, I guess only tea lovers can relate to that, anyways this is my first ever product review. I’m a ” Greenteaholic ” and I’m not quite fond of Black tea, I think it’s too strong and pungent for me.The first time I tried black Tea from what I remember is  I spilled some on my dress because I really cannot take it. I got this from my father and He usually works with his peers from the Middle east.

And because I run out of green tea this morning the cravings lead me the box of Black coffee that I have not opened since the day I got it.

Skeptical about trying it, this time but I tried it anyway.


I got it all wrong “I’m loving it now it has a  nice mild taste good for sensitive taste buds.

It’s not that strong like the first black tea I have tried.I’m thinking  I can add some honey and milk on it and even add some mint.I still have 24  tea bags inside the box :). Maybe I will try to have some tea review for some Black tea brands.I’m excited to try some Alokozay Tea flavors.


** This is not a Paid Product Review


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The Moon City



The Empty souls wandered through the Land built for them.

Searching for the truth in solidarity and solipsism

The vast stravaged for reason  worth dying

while seldom from the troops laments for the living


Their sanity devolved by their ruthless knowledge

and the carcass of nature are piled up from the wild

The remains of the ashes scattered around the Moon City

while the songs from the old sunk in the sea